Can You Repeat That Number Please?!?!

So, my ultrasound this morning was unremarkable again. The biggest follicle measure 14mm. Shitty, shitty, shitty! Nurse instructed me to keep feeding my system with the Gonal F. Since I only had enough for tonight, I would have to buy another pen. (Just what I wanted to hear, right?)

Well, I decided to hold off calling IVP for a refill until they called me back with my b/w results. I wanted to know if my E2 number had risen and exactly how many more pens I needed. Around 11:00 am, the nurse called back and firmly instructed, "DO NOT give yourself an injection tonight and DO NOT buy anymore meds! Come back tomorrow for another ultrasound and more bloodwork."

I asked her why the change of plans and she told me that my E2 level had come back at over 4000!

"What?! Did you say over 4000?" I thought I had heard wrong since I was trying to fall asleep when she called. (I've been suffering from insomnia these past few days from the meds.)

"Yes." She answered. "Over 4000. That is VERY, VERY high."

"No shit." I thought. "The last time I was there, it was only 277."

My first thought was that they had made a mistake but I was too exhausted to question her so I went back to bed. Later on in the afternoon, I decided to call them back to confirm the number and that they wanted me back the next morning.

Sure enough, I wasn't dreaming up this wacko story. I should've known - my body would let me down. Such a freaking high number and NOT.ONE.SINGLE mature follicle.

Tell me, is it time for me to give up yet?? Am I just chasing a dream that I simply can't have? Cuz it feels that way. The closer I think I am to reaching it, the more obstacles I encounter. Please let this be the last obstacle if I am meant to have biological children.